My side of TTC life..

I'll try to make it as short and sweet as possible!

9Years ago I got married to my best friend! I never in my life thought that u could be soooo happy and in love. I absolutely LOVED being married, playing "house-house".....LOVED IT!
Two years went by and I was finally ready to be a mommy...well, I thought we were ready. The first few months "off the pill" was actually so funny, I tell u even tooth ache ended up in taking a pregnancy test...hehe! Six months went by and nutta....all the stories that "it only takes ONE TIME" and ur knocked up, turned out very different for me! We went to see a gynae......we were trying for about 6/7months, we were 25years old, and the gynae did not see any concern....so without any tests he just put me on a low dose of Clomid - said to stay on that for 6months

Well I was on the last course of Clomid, and voila.....period never came and I for the first time ever saw two lines on the stickie.....VERY FAINT second line...but what the hell, it was there!! Had severe period pain and two days later started bleeding...went to the hospital and was sent home with pain meds.....was advised to just take the meds and let nature takes it course....which it did....I miscarriage after being on cloud nr 9 for 2days....

We moved to another city....decided to see a fertility specialist and it was picked up that I had stage 2 endo, this apparently was the reason for me not ovulating...hubby's test came back great and had no worries on his side. We started treatment, also timed cycles but with injections....tried it for 3months and nothing.....

In the meantime...hubby was climbing the "career ladder" and we moved once again.....somehow we were just not on the same page with the baby thing...it was as if he never wanted to admit that we had a problem...he just did not want to take the treatments any further....and to be honest I was soooo fed-up with all the different doctors...telling the same story over and over that I just decided that NO MORE! No more doctors and no more conversations with hubby about babies.....

About another 4years went by without ANYTHING happening, we moved AGAIN and I fell into a major depression!! Hubby was so busy with his career and I had to move all over the place to support this....and deep down I was so unhappy and teribly lonely. I missed something and wanted him to settle down, and the only thing I could think was how useless I am that I can't even give my husband a family...... We, well more I decided it's time to climb back on board and get pregnant! Another two endo procedures was done, I now had stage 4 endo and with a low egg reserve we were told that our chance of having our own babies is way more difficult and unrealistic as we could ever imagine. Our gynae put me on a low dose of Clomid just to see if it has any effect on my eggs...and there it happened again....I was preggies! Everything about the pregnancy was different, but at 8weeks there was no haertbeat.....so had a D&C and went home again...with nothing.....

For the first time in our lives, hubby came on board and realised that we had a serious problem and the dream of having our own children could be shattered forever. We decided to get some serious treatment, so off we went to Vitalab....went through ALL the test again...and it was even worst...my ovaries looked like "dried prunes" and the test results showed that I had the hormone levels were the same as a 40year old woman! I had damage and scarring in my ovaries, uterus and tubes! The good news was that hubby could donate sperm to the whole of south-africa! I had another procedure where the scarring was cut out and they did as much repair in there as humanly possible.

I remember driving back to Nelspruit that day....crying the whole way....the words that even with IVF our chances weren't that great. There will be eggs, but we don't know the quality....the doc said.... So....I had to wait for my period to start and after that had to go back for a office hysteroscopy to see if everything has healed. I had some light bleeding went to VL and they couldn't do the procedure as my lining were too thick and to his supprise Dr J saw two nice eggies in my ovareis

We were sent home and told to come back with after my next period so that we can do the procudure and then be put on birth control for a month....and then start our very first IVF
So.....HUBBY worked out the "days" and told me when we should baby dance..hehe.....I was just enjoying his envolvement and was soooo excited to start IVF....didn't even think for one minute that anything will come of those eggies...been there done that....

Well....without ANY meds....without even doing "it" for days and days.....I was preggies! I've read and heard MANY miracle stories, and NEVER in my wildest dreams thought that I will also have a miracle story. Of course the days that followed after finding out I was preggies was soooooo hard...all the fears...fears of miscarriage, fears of not seeing a haertbeat....sjoe....

And here we are....we have 6 sleeps left and then we will hold our precious little girl in our arms!!! Every pregnancy is a miracle, but even more so when u know that the chances of it happening..."all natural" were about zero!!

Believe it....miracles do happen......although I had to be pregnant for 7years....it finally happened....although we're still to meet her face to face, she has changed our lives in so many ways and God has blessed us to expriece the gift of life....WE'RE GOING TO BE PARENTS! Even though you may feel alone, maybe even like God has forgotten you...NEVER.....ur miracle is on the way!!

What a beautiful story.

Thanks for sharing.

I pray that your baby girl brings you and your Dh a lifetime of happiness and joy.

thanks for sharing your story .. God is great

what a inspiring story!
6 sleeps, wow!!

Congrats again,i truely believe in miracles,it has also happend to me.

beautiful story

Thanks for sharing.

WOW! What a beautiful ending!

Good luck and all the best for the road further!

Sad story with a beatutiful and inspirational ending. All the best to you and hubby, baba will bring you so much joy.

Hi Liv, Thanks for sahring your story, you have been through a so much and over a long period of time. I love it though when miracles happen, and your little miracle will be safetly in your arms in 6 days. Hope she brings lots of love, happiness and laughter in the house.
Hugs

I'm so so so happy you finally are getting your happy ending!

What a beautiful story!

What a happy ending!

Yay!! Thanks for sharing my friend!

Thanks girls!!

Awesome story - with such a happy ending!
Thank you for sharing your story!