Att: Zee

When are u testing?

Good luck girl and praying for you.

Hi Mariska

Thanks for asking,

I tested on Thursday, was BFN. Started AF on Friday.

Surprising I was not at all upset. My mind has been in so many places lately. A friend lost her baby at 9 months pregnant, 4 days after his birth. It really affected me badly for some reason. I just felt sick to my stomach.

The day before I tested I looked at a photo of J when he was a few weeks old and I almost burst into tears. I felt so GUILTY thinking that I might be pregnant and would be giving all my attention to someone else when J needs me so much. He's my baby and I love him so much.

I think my crazy emotions was due to J being really ill (vomiting) last week and his scar getting infected.etc. Then he gave his bug to me. Then the news of my friends baby. It was just too much for me.

Im starting to feel better now, and am really just leaving it up to God. We will still BD on the right days but conception is up to Him and I am totally at peace with it.

Thanks so much for asking!

Zee , was thinking of you lots too. in HIS time. (sorry about your friend, just breaks my heart, wish i could encourage her)

SO sorry to hear you've had to go through all this. THinking of you and also of your friend.

I am so sorry about your friend, will keep them in my prayers. I am glad that you found peace with God and all in His time. I am glad you are feeling better.

I am thinking of you and know we are all here for you.