Att: Zellie

Hi zellie,

You and your girls are on my mind so much all the time. I just wanted to check and see how things are going?

How is the job?
How are the girls in the health department?
How did they adjust to school?
How are you holing up?

I just wanted to tell you that you are an amazing woman, somehow through all the tradegy you have some how come across so strong and positive and I have no idea how you do it but know you are an inspiration!

Hope you don't mind me prying just want yo to know you are thought of often

I agree, you often pop into my head and I wonder and then pray that you are doing ok with yourself and the girls.

mm I also think of you often Zellie - all my love x

Ditto, think of you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much.

Amen to that!

Hi

Thank you for asking.

I actually don't have a job yet. Got the job I went to for my 1st interview but they wanted me to work over Christmas and I just couldn't. I already promised to meet my family (husbands side) at the south coast and everyone bought their plane tickets so it would have been a lot of money lost. Also I DON'T want to be at home over Christmas, need to escape last years Christmas memories at home.

It's weird but you are not the first person to think I come across as strong and positive. I don't think I am that strong but maybe people perceive it as being strong because I don't break down in front of them or try to carry on as normal for the sake of the children. I still have my moments were I break down but that normally happens when I am alone ... I deal with my pain very privately.

Also I don't have the time to sit still and feel sorry for myself and the girls because they are fatherless cause I am busy the whole time. The girls are still sick and Clarice started her 2nd course of antibiotics on Monday. It's now the 4th week since they started with all the symptoms plus Clarice had the added bonus of getting mumps Oh and both girls are now walking plus Abigail has fully mastered the art of throughing a tantrum and biting. But for the most part they bring a lot of sunshine into my life

I just hope both will be ok before we leave for our holiday. So all and all under the circumstances we are doing ok.

Hope you all have a wonderful time over Christmas and thank you for keeping me and the girls in your prayers, I really appreciate it.

Luv
Zellie

Ah Zellie, it just breaks my heart to know you are going through this. So much more because I have seen my sister go through it first hand.

It is so hard and each day brings different emotions. Some days are easier than others and then there are the days where you do want to just close the door and hide from the world.

Cathy always said thank God for Keagan otherwise she would have thrown in the towel.

The only advice I have is to do what you are doing. Take one day at a time. Once the dreaded "firsts" are over (first christmas, birthday, anniversary etc) it starts to get slightly easier. I'm not saying it ever goes away, you just seem to learn to live with it a little better.

I think it is a great idea that you are going away for Christmas. Being together with family and loved ones is what matters and he would want that. You are an amazing woman and your girls are very lucky to have you.

I hope that they get better asap so that you can have a hassle free Christmas.

xxxxxx

Well doen Abigail and Clarice. Shame Zellie I hope they get over this soon now. Thinking of you too!

XXX

It must be so hard but I thikn you are doing so well... one day at a time

Have an awsome Christmas with the famiy, will be nice to be surrounded by people who love you and the girls and can help to give you a little break.
x x x x x

Zellie I think you are so strong just to carry on for the girls. And not that I am saying anything about how people cope with grief but you dont seem to have any self pity/feeling sorry for yourself.

I think your girls will be proud at how you carried on for them keeping everything as normal as possible. many people dealling with less hectic situations just drop everything including thier kids.

I hope next year goes much better for you. and good luck with the job

As I said earlier - all my love. I think you are one strong lady - have much respect for you.

Zellie you may not think it of yourself but you are an amazingly strong person and someone that alot of us can look up to. You never whine about your circumstances and you have carried on as normally as possible for your girls and i truly admire you for that. Congrads on the girls walking, it's a busy stage but so rewarding oh and the temper tantrums i won't even comment on as my daughter is mastering them on a daily basis. I hope that Christmas passes without too much pain and that you and the girls have a lovely holiday.