This is a bit more than just my birth story(from my blog)

So Hubby and me were married for almost 3 years when we decided it was time to have a baby, coming to think about it,we never really gave it much thought. If we did then I might have never fallen pregnant in the first
place.......


Yes we did think about the cost of diapers, milk(as I am not one for breastfeeding), clothing and the future of the child, but we never ever thought about sleepless nights, teething,sickness all the sort of "bad aspects" of having a little one.

And to be quite honest, we did plan it, but did not actually think it will happen so fast, because we have heard it can take a while, well ... hehe in our case it took just 2 months!!!!! Not thatI am complaining, I am very happy for having such a cute and lovely little boy, and not having to struggle as I think it can be very heartbreaking and sad.


So last year on the 18 April 2008 the doc confirmed I was 6weeks preggies, I was overwhelmed by the news and so was hubby, with tears in our eyes we immediately informed everyone(knowing we should wait until the 12week mark-but who can???).

All was fine until that first scan, when i actually saw my baby moving inside of me, then i got scared....

I started thinking will i be able to look after a baby who is totally depended on me, how will i
know when he is sick, how will i know if something is not right, how will i know if i will be doing the right thing at the right time????? There were questions and qeustions and more questions.... less and less and less answers!!!

So as the time passes and the scans came and went i started thinking about the "what if's" what if they did not detect that something was wrong with the baby on the scans, what if they missed something, will i be able to handle a baby that is not normal?

So on 21 weeks , a week before we were about to find out the gender of the baby,i went for my check up and never thought of hearing some bad news, the doc measured the baby and said she was worried because it seems to her the baby is not growing and that i must go for an more indepht scan with the specialists. I was in tears, i have not even met this baby inside of me and already the thougth of loosing him or her, drove me to tears and out of my mind, my first thought were what did i do wrong, in my pregnancy??? I got an appointment for a scan, i just needed to wait 30minutes... it was the longest 30 minutes of my life, it felt like years passing and all i could think of was "please God let this Little one be save" Shame poor hubby just sat next to me not knowing what to say or to do.

Finally it was our turn to go for the scan...what a relieve the baby was fine and the specialist
reassured me nothing was wrong, my baby is a healthy little BOY!!!!!!!!

I never thought that words like that could make me so happy... i went out and celebrated with my hubby over a nice LARGE PIZZA!!! Mmmmmm.....

So the weeks passed and everything except my tummy was growing, on 30 weeks, people started to ask me if i am sure i am pregnant? The ladies at Baby Boom asked me when my due date was and when i told them 16 December 2008, they could not believe how small i was carrying.... suddenly i wanted a tummy very badly.

Then finally,almost over night i got this nice round tummy, and everyone could see i was preggies, that was the best feeling ever to show off my tummy.

My due date draw near and i became terrified, not knowing how in the world Tristan will arrive, normal or c-sec, I read every possible birth story and just as I thougth I made up my mind, someone says something or I hear something and then I was clueless all over again.


So the doc told me if by the 16 December I have not given birth she will ask another doc to take over as she will be leaving for Christmas holidays. And i just thought there is no way in hell another doc is going to catch my baby, so i did everything possible to let Tristan make his grand entrance into this world on the 16th, but oh no, it did not happen.

I had to go back to her the 17th, if nothing had happened. She said to me i might still have to wait another week or two.......

So at this stage Iwas utterly frustrated and "gatvol" of being preggies, the regular trips to the bathroom during the night, the back pain, the pubic bone pain everything was just to much to wait any longer. The doc proposed we do a c-sec the next morning the 18th( my little brothers birthday), but I interupted her straight away by asking" so doc what are you doing this afternoon?" She started to laugh and said to me "I will see in theatre at 17H00 for your c-sec!!!"

I was so happy that it was finally going to be over, but at the same time scared to death. This was 10H00 in the morning so you can just imaging what a "drag" the day was. Hubby walked up and down he could not sit down for one moment he was all stressed out, it almost looked like he was the one who is going to have the baby!!! hahaha

So finally after being admitted, the nurses came to get me ready for theatre, again the excitement was overwhelming. I was ok, up until th
e point when they started to move me to the theatre and I realised this is it!!! I started to cry the moment I saw my mom(becoming a grandmother for the first time, and my dad not being there as he passed away 16 years ago) and seeing hubby all chuffed and ready to become a dad!!!

Going into the theatre I just said to myself do not look around, knowing if I should so much as saw a glipmse of a needle I would pass out!!! The anesthestatic(spelling?????) came and told me to relax and bend over for him to do what ever he needs to do for the Spinal block, I did not feel a thing, and waited for my body to go numb......and waited ...... and waited..... nothing!!!!

The the doc and assistant arrived ready to do the op, and I told them to wait cause I can still feel my legs!!!! So they "topped me up" and waited....waited .....and waited. After 40 minutes my doc said to me very strict "Erdna, if you do not go numb in the next 5 min we will have to put you out completely and hubby will not be able to come in"

So either I went into shock or the anestetics (spelling????) started to work but the next thing I knew, Hubby was standing next to me, I saw Tristan Flying over me, not moving, I got scared as hell, thinking what is wrong again. Hubby left, came back with the Pead saying all is fine we took photos and that was it!!!

So lying there getting all stitched up the doc's are talking about where they are going on holiday, and i could feel slowly but surely, life is coming back to my body. And all i remember was saying "i dont care where you are going on holiday just hurry up with those stitches!!!!!

My body went into shock so I was shaking a bit and had to lie in the recovery room for a while.

Finally got to my room and there my mom and hubby was waiting for me, and then the nurse arrived with Tristan, so small and helpless. I could not believe that I had a baby it was SOOOOO unreal!!!! He weighed 3.215 kg's and was 49cm tall.

C-Sec ......not bad at all will do it again!!!

Today I am sitting here almost 5 months later, thinking about everything I was scared about and realise its just because it was the unknown. Not knowing what will happen or what to do.

Tristan is a strong and cute little boy, that changed my life beyond my imagination. He is the love of my love(except for hubby). Having Tristan made me realise what life and love is all about.

This is something i will do again in a few years time.

To my hubby thank you for the best present ever, I love the both of you so much!!

Read this on your blog and loved it and read it again now! Wow!

Gorgeous!

loved reading it on your blog and again now!

What a great birth story!

Awesome story!

Nice hearing the fuller version Erdna-thanks and take good care of that baby boy...

wow - thats a lovely story thank you Erdna..

and i like how you thank your Dh at the end too, cos they are so much part of the whole experience too. I'm so glad that everything was ok with Tristan in the end.. shame what a scare you had there... xxx

It's true Erdna, we are mostly afraid of the unknown!
Nice to read the story from the beginning!!!